Sunday, March 22, 2009

i haven't been sleepin' so wellllll

[title an excerpt from vega under fire's 'fabricated air'//]

Today I got nine hours of sleep. That's the first time it's happened in at least a month, and boy did it feel good; despite waking up to see it was one o'clock in the afternoon.

I wish I could say that I live by the phrase 'Who needs sleep? You can sleep when you're dead.', cause unfortunately I can't. I know though, that a good portion of my friends can, and I wish I knew the secret to surviving through every day with only 4-6 hours of sleep. Whenever I get that amount, I tend to have headaches throughout the day and am an extreme bitch for the first couple hours I'm out of bed.

Maybe it's from being home schooled pretty much my whole life. The days I don't have to work, go to church or get up before nine or ten, I've always gotten a decent amount of sleep; and it seems that whenever I don't, I cannot handle it as well as my peers can.

This train of thought has been in my mind for at least two weeks now; and I'd like to throw it out into the void. Because voids don't talk back to tell you the many situations or activities in your life that you could change to help getting more sleep accomplish-able. Which I'm extremely tired of hearing. I know the things I should do to stop it, it's just going to take time.

- L